greetings,
i’m a part-time worker, student, & full-time optimist living in the natural, but expected, chaos of my mid-twenties.
in my online profiles i currently go by pienon / phaenon / neikos, or anything that is reminiscent or related to our dear phainon.
i don’t do much with my free time besides gaming, but this year (2026) i’ve decided to take a break from screens & engage with my previous hobbies which were reading, writing, drawing, playing instruments, & working out. the only game i currently play is red dead online, but i used to play honkai: star rail, wolf quest, & my dearly deceased alicia online.
the reason why i write in lowercase & use ampersands to an excessive amount comes from engaging & reading lots of silas’ works. i find it aesthetically pleasing & fun. i also mix a lot of "british" & "american" english because it’s my second language & i have no intention of correcting this in a personal online space.
on a more personal note, i’m learning a lot of things & unfolding many traumatic events & unconscious fears since moving out from my mother’s nest & living with my aunt as a growing adult. i’m the first case of arrested development in my household, & i struggle with anxiety since i was 10 for some unknown reason & with executive dysfunction since the dawn of my days. i love medieval aesthetics & knights. my favourite colours are blue, green, & grey, but i have a soft spot for maroons & browns. my favourite seasons are spring first & autumn second. i love drizzles, but i panic during thunderstorms or downpours. my family collects rosaries & i wish i had enough confidence to wear some of them as jewellery. i have zero sense of personal style & perception, but i’m working on that.
currently
- feeling: worried
- listening:
- watching:
- playing:
- reading: monographs, articles...
- drinking: water
- currently: swallowing shame so i can finish this thing once and for all
last modified: 1 week, 1 day ago.
long hyperfixations tracker
- owls, dragons, horses, wolves (2007-ongoing)
- deviantart sparklewolves (2009-2011)
- my personal stories & ocs (2012-2021)
- jungian typology, socionics (2018-2023)
- the enneagram theory (2018-ongoing)
- western politics & economic theory (2019-2020)
- chilumi/childe (2022-2024)
- red dead online (2025-ongoing)
- phainon (2025-ongoing)